Being A Man About It

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Statement from Tyson Gay: After positive test for a banned substance.

“I don’t have a sabotage story. I put my trust in someone and was let down. I don’t have anything to say to make this seem like it was a mistake or it was on USADA’s (United States Anti-Doping Agency) hands, someone playing games. I don’t have any of those stories. I made a mistake. I know exactly what went on, but I can’t discuss it right now. I hope I am able to run again, but I will take whatever punishment I get like a man”

a revelation really, an honest and selfless acceptance for testing positive.

Tyson Gay is an American track and field sprint athlete who competes in the 100-meter and 200-meter dash. His 100 m personal best of 9.69 seconds is the American record and makes him the second fastest athlete ever.

Mont Ventoux

Is it just me? How is Richie Port able to ride the best climbers in the game off his wheel after being a domestique for two weeks…*sigh*

Watching the live feed of Chris Froome cross the finish line first on Mont Ventoux felt hollow. The legacy of past doping athletes is formative, creating a cynical lens.

The post race interview with Chris Froome gives away the false modesty of an athlete that is wrestling with guilt for cheating. When Froome was asked about beating the young Columbian climber to the finish line today, his responses were searching and contradictory.
In the span of three sentences Chris Froome describes how he never thought he would win the stage and only wanted to increase the margins on the GC riders…then in a confusing turn of logic he mentions in a matter of fact way that he was surprised how hard it was to catch Quintana and put a minute and half on him in the last kilometer.  Patronizing, hollow.

 Chris Froome wrote his name in the Tour de France history books on Sunday with victory on the famed Mont Ventoux.


Chris Froome wrote his name in the Tour de France history books on Sunday with victory on the famed Mont Ventoux.

After repeatedly attacking Quintana in the final two kilometers, Froome describes his win as only being possible because Quintana was “fading”. That comment belies an awkward self conscious understanding that he should not have been able to catch and drop Quintana in the fashion he did.

Chris Froome could have done a more convincing job of faking his humility by not attacking Quintana in the final kilo in the same way Richie Port should have kept his ego and his “physical advantage” under wraps on the day he attacked his way into second place over all in the Tour after towing Froome up the hill. “Not Normal”

The arrogance and greed of the Sky team is disappointing and diminishes the experience of the Tour de France,

Quality of Life

Barb and Kate traveled to Seattle this morning for an appointment with the neurology folks at Seattle Childrens Hospital to have an EEG study. The study will measure electrical activity while capturing video of her at the same time, to reference any physical signs of seizures.

Since the study was scheduled a month ago, Kate has had waves of nausea and general downturn in her wellbeing that last for five to seven days. Saturday night she started vomiting and has not been able to sleep at night, waking up five or six times a night with bouts of nausea.

Yesterday Isabelle, Paetra and Barb rode bikes to Sweet Peaks Ice Cream after dinner, while Kate and I walked with her in a stroller. When we arrived Kate was uninterested in ice cream and asked to go home, the signal was clear. Her disposition is heavy and agitated, crying and miserable throughout the day sunday and yesterday. Our goal is to create a higher quality of life for her, she is smart and capable when not weighed down by the unresolved issues, she deserves a better shot at life.
We are hopeful that the EEG provides an increased degree of understanding for the origin of her smaller seizures and points us in a direction of addressing her baseline well being.
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April 15 2013

We met withe Kate’s pediatrician on Thursday, April 18th, to discuss the EEG results from April 16th and sort out a plan for addressing her seizures. We are working on getting an appointment with the neurology team at Seattle Children’s Hospital as soon as possible. We have a previously scheduled checkup with the surgical team in May, but neurology is proving to be a challenge, with appointments available starting in August.

Until last week Barb and I have been primarily focused on learning about the potential issues related to shunt failure and identifying the symptoms that would help us react appropriately. We have been looking at Kate’s issues with the understanding that an increase in cranial pressure due to shunt failure would be at the root of the issues.

Historically we have attributed the sequence of symptoms, agitation, vomiting, nystagmus, etc… to potential shunt failure, this resulted is an incomplete understanding. The symptoms never lined up correctly to clearly indicate her shunt was not working. The EEG results and a review of the video from the ER Sunday night let us know we need to look at seizures along with the potential increase in cranial pressure as a source.

Prior to April 15th, what I had interpreted as nystagmus attributed to an increase in cranial pressure, is shown in the video to be a rhythmic pattern of eye movement in sync with her right arm contractions during the seizure….this is a painful point of increased understanding. Good to know what is actually happening and be able to address it accurately, difficult to process that we have been reading her symptoms incorrectly for 24 months. The incomplete interpretation of Kate’s symptoms have guided her course of care in the ER on several occasions and informed decisions about revising her shunt surgically in October of 2012.

Roughly 72 hours after the re-introduction of Keppra we saw a decrease in lip smacking while sleeping and daytime retching as part of Kate’s “episodes” where she reports to us the urgent need to throw up. It seems notable that she has this feeling frequently and never actually throws up. Prior to Keppra, she would have episodes where she would insist on having a bucket to throw up in, at times walking around the house with it until she felt better.

The last three months she has had good days and bad days. On good days she would have two or three episodes while bad days were ten to fifteen episodes. The most concerning episodes are when she will suddenly stop playing, and climb up on Barb or I and tell us she feels sick, then fall asleep on our shoulder in the middle of the day, not in a typical nap time.

This morning she had the first episode in a week, letting us know that we need to push for an increased understanding of what the symptoms are telling us about Kate’s neurological wellbeing. Additional EEG studies at Seattle Children’s or a comparable facility will hopefully give us an understanding if the retching, nausea episodes are a low level seizure or an indicator of the potential onset of a seizure and what expectations we should have of the medications ability to address what we are seeing.

We are working with Kate’s local pediatrician, Dr Graham, to schedule the neurological appointments as soon as possible. At this time we hope for greater understanding and an increase in our peace of mind with regard to what Kate is experiencing and our ability to respond correctly.

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Chance